Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Novel feat. Chrisette Michele - Wonderful


On repeat in the 'ssat. Bri "you're my little piece of wonderful."

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Goodnight

Daniel put the baby down to sleep,
-Today Bri was frightened by an unfamiliar face in our apartment
But she woke up.
-She was on the floor for some crawl time
I helped her lay down again,
-She looked up, noticed him and thought of crying
rubbed her back,
-Instead she began to crawl toward me
turned on music and heartbeat sounds.

When none of it worked
-He spoke to encourage her, but it only frightened her more.
I figured I was part of the problem so I left
- She began to cry and crawled better and faster
She began to cry, loudly and she tried to speak
- She slipped a few times, but kept going
Then suddenly the cry seemed closer
- I leaned down to encourage her
I wanted to run into her room, but I had asked Daniel to go check on her
-I put my hands out
Daniel beat me to her
-She put each of her tiny hands in each of mine
I stopped to let him handle it
-She lifted herself to her feet with my help
Daniel yelled to me down the hallway
- I picked her up and held her
"She was standing"

Bri needs me.
I inspire her to press harder.
She thinks it'll be alright if she can just get to me.

Today, for the very first time, I felt like a mom.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

It is Winning

Ugh ... I decided that Bri's room wouldn't be finished until I completed my first custom lamp
My first effort to have a product to sell
My very first thing that incorporates all my talents ... or whatever

It is winning though. The thing refuses to become a thing.
It is mocking me, whispering "I'm not a thing."
Smiling like I'm chained up and it is just beyond my grasp.

& that, my friends, is how it will lose!
The last thing that mocked me was tied down and tortured
Conquered, dismayed ... humbled

I have to say to this thing that refuses to be a thing
That I am a person that refuses to
Be stopped by a thing
Least of all a thing that is merely something that I
Have yet to learn to do

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Fisher-Price Rainforest Jumperoo - Fisher-Price - Babies "R" Us

Fisher-Price Rainforest Jumperoo - Fisher-Price - Babies "R" Us

First of all, I love product reviews. Bad spelling, faulty logic and general weirdness. LOL
Second, This thing must rock. 1513 reviews average 5/5 stars. Wow.
Bri and I are on a mission to check it out tomorrow. I hope she loves it.

I'm going to miss all this stuff as she grows out of it.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Half Full - Real Optimism

My glass is always half full.
Full of what?
I don't know.

I keep thinking "I'm definitely not getting those shoes now."
Those shoes are the cutest since the pink Steve Maddens that
I keep imagining someone homeless wearing.

My glass is full of something refreshing;
My mind is full of shoes, ottomans, dining tables and school.

School has tears rolling down my cheeks,
Nearly missing my half full glass.
The glass isn't half full of tears.

 I'm picturing crying the breath out of my body
Working myself into the sort of frenzy Dane Cook described
"I did my best!" (I couldn't help but laugh.)

I was everything I said I'd be and more
Still feels like it's my fault

But the glass with its half portion of a beverage I'll savor
Hasn't noticed any tears, hasn't thought about the shoes, table or ottoman.
Doesn't think it's all my fault 

The glass is waiting patiently for me to drink and see
That a mere half of its contents
Is more than enough

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Baby Teeth

I wish I had a metaphor in mind for the single tooth bursting through my baby's gums
But all I can think about is my cat Chyna and how my tiny tiger made way for my little lion
I'll have new teeth to care for
I'll have new things to make not seem so bad
I have someone new to lay next to for five minutes just because they need me.

I miss my kitty, and I love my baby
Even though I'm almost 30 the whole thing seems early
It seems like I have oodles more growing up to do.

Still, when I look at my baby, I'm glad that I know how to work and earn
Glad that I'm not too good to hop on a bus and get where I'm going
I'm pleased that I know how to pray and give my cares away ... mostly away

She doesn't know what a fickle-minded goofball I used to be
She just knows that I kiss her until she smiles when I wake her up
and I make silly noises until she laughs
She knows that I make a fantastic pillow even when she's fighting sleep
And now she's learning that I'd gladly rub her gums as she gets in her baby teeth.